I’ve just typed up, and then deleted, a long post about things I’ve learnt about myself lately. I wasn’t pleasnt reading for me. I seem to be getting obsessive about silly things and unnecessarily grouchy when people do certain things.

I’ve never been good when plans change, I always need to know what’s happening when, but when things change around the house or get put back in different places normally I’d be fine. I don’t know whether it’s just having someone else in my house that’s doing it to me, or that I’m just stressed and ridiculously tired thanks to Mr H’s job situation that’s exacerbating it, or just something else entirely.

Maybe things will change from next week. R has got herself a temping job starting on Monday working 9-4:15, it will be nice to have the house back to myself in the daytimes. Mr H has also started getting interviews. He has one over the telephone this afternoon (in about an hour!) for a job back in the city where we started married life (and somewhere we’d love to go back to at some point) and another next Thursday in a town about 20 miles away from here. Both jobs would be commutable from here in the short term, but for the sake of Mr H spending any time with the munchkin aside from weekends we would move when the right house came up.

I’m hoping Mr H will let me have a lie in at the weekend. I’ve been getting up almost every other night lately for the munchkin, either she’s cold because she’s kicked off her covers, she’s dropped her cuddly giraffe or last night’s treat, she’s done a poo and got sore from it. I’ve been trying to let Mr H get as much rest as he can, but I think if I don’t get some soon I’ll struggle even more with looking after him. I’m also hoping that R will baby sit again in the next week or so, so that we can have a night out and try to relax together, I think that’s something that would help us both.

The main thing that would help though would be Mr H’s company finally handing out the official redundancy notices rather than faffing around and delaying it due to other departments in the company where only some staff are under threat being awkward, for Mr H’s team who are all going they just want to know. Once we have that we know where we stand, and what money we have when which will definitely make things a bit less uncertain.